all hail mcqueen

Earlier today Emma and I pretended to be classy and fashionable and went to a private showing of the Alexander McQueen Fall Collection at Saks. We headed into into a tiny curtained off room with a bunch of older fancy women and men and sat happily as pretty boys in suits served us sparkling water and macarons. 'Twas nice. The collection is beautiful of course and Grimes was playing as the fresh faced models strutted they stuff. Baby fashion show vibes - fun! Of course we both left crying because it was just so beautiful. 

Here are some crappy instagram photos I took - I might post the actual clothing items that were shown tomorrow or this weekend or something.

One of my favorite dresses from the collection -  obsessed with the flower details

Emma touching McQueen. It was a very pivotal moment in her nearly 18 years.

Looking gross next to beautiful Emerald Leather dress I won't wanna talk about it...

So in love with the McQueen skulls - especially as adorned on the clasps of these fantastic clutches.

And if you would like to see my outfit you can see bad pictures both here and here. 

Enjoy the average-ness.

why one direction ruined my life

It's like the Jonas Brothers all over again. 

I have been brainwashed by One Direction.

Here's why:

1. They're BRITISH/IRISH. 
2. They wear tight pants. What can be bad about teenage boys in tight pants?
3. 2 words: Boy. Band.
4. They sing songs that make absolutely no sense - think "If I'm louder, would you see me?" in 'More Than This'
5. Harry Styles. I think that's self explanatory. I didn't know people like that existed.
6. They make boob jokes on camera and it's okay.
7. Zayn Malik's facial hair.
8. When Louis sings it sounds like someone is squeezing his groin (solo in 'Moments' just makes me laugh even though it shouldn't?)
9. Their album is so catchy it's actually a problem because I should not be listening to it. It has a considerable amount of plays on my iPod. That is just embarrassing.
10. THIS. (and definitely this)
11. Liam Payne can do the moonwalk.
12. Some of the songs they sing are actually super dirty. They didn't write them, but I'm prettttty sure 'Another World' is about very sexual naughty things. "I'll build you up, I'll never stop you know I'll take you to another world...." how is that not... like, what?
13. Harry Styles likes Arctic Monkeys.
14. Accents. Again.
15. Niall is a bottle blonde. Too funny.  
16. They have ruined any expectations for anyone I will ever meet and I will become a grumpy old bunny lady (not a cat lady, my sister is allergic)
17. Somehow they are not embarrassed to perform a song with a guitar solo as ridiculous as the one in 'I Want'... but they probably have no choice
18. All of them brush their hair to the same direction - ONE DIRECTION
19. They're.. just. so.. pretty.
20. Oh, and they can actually sing. 

My finding them amusing and somewhat entertaining has taken away any credibility to my taste in music, thus ruining my life. I am now considering drowning my shame in pizza and never leaving the house again. 

it's a 'pink' thing

Soooo.... I made another collage of random things I am looking into purchasing for spring. (I actually ordered the pink sunnies already - I made this a little while ago) Somehow my favorite clothing items all ended up being from the beloved Topshop. Basically this is a collection of stuff I want from Topshop or just a manifestation of my mind telling me that I really really really like the color pink. Being a girl can be fun! 

90's Grunge Flower Slip Dress, Pink Keyhole Sunglasses, Neoprene Backpack, April Nubuck Chelsea Boots, Round Sunglasses, Frill Hem Cami, Mr Dannijo Umbilical Bracelet 

ashes and snow

I first saw Ashes and Snow when I was 11. 7 years ago I was not old enough to quite grasp the beauty of these photographs, but nonetheless seeing them again brings me to tears. 

photos by Gregory Colbert

how much is that?

Being young and working in Manhattan is making me finally realize the harshness of the economy and world and stuff. Yeah so I'm still in high school and my parents pay for my existence, but lately I've been trying to buy things I want, but don't actually need, causing my babysitting fund to be sucked dry. Things are really expensive. I know how much things cost and what not, but lately I've been asking myself why everything suddenly feel so pricey. Probably because I'm trying to pay for it myself. I'm very lucky that I've gone this long without feeling totally powerless when it comes to my expenses. At the same time, I hate that it's taken me this long to think about this. I'm a lucky girl in the sense that I was born into the kind of world my parents created for me - I have my own (fairly large) room, my drawers are in a constant state of rotation from buying new clothes, winter break is usually spent in Europe and I've gone to private school my whole life. But lately I don't know whether I resent my upbringing or should just embrace it. Obviously I appreciate everything my parents have given me and the incredible life I've had, but at the same time knowing that there are people out there who work for what they have makes me feel useless. I see girls just spend and spend and spend using their parents' credit cards and I just can't imagine doing that. My parents pay for my $10 lunches (thanks NYC), but I can't bring myself to just take more and more from them. Can I even do that?

My existence now seems less legitimate when I consider the fact that I've really done nothing for myself, it's basically just there for me. And that's sad isn't it? I mean, growing up with parents who care about having cultured children that see the amazing parts of living is something I would never give up. My parents have really provided me with anything a teenage girl could want. But I don't want to depend on them forever. I want a real life. I want to be real. I don't quite know what that means - right now it means buying concert tickets and clothes I don't need and that's pathetic - but I just feel stupid existing right now. I told my mom recently that I wish she had sent me to a 'normal' school so that I could have had a more steady job in high school. Because of my crazy stupid hours in school and hectic study schedule, I never figured out what made me feel useful. Now, going to work and finding office jobs (some that pay, and some that don't) makes me feel so good inside. I'm not helping the world or anything big, but a productive day in an office gives me this odd feeling of satisfaction, like I'm actually capable of doing something other than passively absorbing life. So I don't buy my food or the majority of anything I 'own,' but I guess I want to resemble a real human being and less of a spoiled brat.